Death of me

Going crazy is definitely a full time job and I am the employee of the month. To give my all is to destroy myself, as per usual, I cannot function otherwise, that’s who I am.
Kartais kai kurie užrašai neturi gilios prasmės ir tėra minčių srautas
Going crazy is definitely a full time job and I am the employee of the month. To give my all is to destroy myself, as per usual, I cannot function otherwise, that’s who I am.
Recently, I’ve read that when you are ignored by a person whose attention means the most to you, the reaction in your brain will be similar to physical pain. And God do I feel that, it’s painful on numerous levels.
Don’t worry, I have survived everyone up to this point of my life, I will survive you, I will survive the grief of you. Still, the hands that want to hug me are appreciated but they are not yours.